Trying to Run on Empty

Hey everyone. I hope everyone already knows the reason I've been out for a while. I haven't made in any secret that I've been sick and after those really bad 103 degree fevers last week I told myself I can't handle it anymore and I really am going to see a real doctor. The antibiotics the Minute Clinic nurse gave me weren't doing anything and the cough suppressants barely were making a dent in my bronchitis at all. The fevers didn't start until after going there too, so along with my very generous father to help pay for my doctor's visit, I finally went.

X-rays were taken, and thankfully there's no serious pneumonia. There was a small amount of fluid but no pooling of liquid at the bottom of my lungs or anything. He kept asking me about my asthma this or had I had bad asthma as a child, which I had never been diagnosed of in my life. Apparently my body reacts like an asthmatic? I'll definitely have to look more into that when I get better.

The treatment he put me on is a medicine called Prednisone, which is a pretty evil little steroid that suppresses your immune system so that it stops attacking itself. I'd been on it once before when I had a bad food allergy that put me in the hospital, and I still have haunting memories of all the bad side effects. Last time, the worst was INTENSE food cravings like I've never had in my life. I had gained about 5lbs in 1 week. I know that doesn't sound like a lot to some of you, but that was literally 1/15th of my entire body weight. This combined with body aches, water retention causing a puffy face and bloated stomach, depression, and important design projects I had to work on... Obviously I had reasons to be disappointed I had to get back on it.

My reaction this time around hasn't been pleasant but it's been different. I haven't had any of the food cravings, partially since I haven't been very hungry since being sick in the first place. My fevers have actually grown less frequent day to day and my coughing has gone down significantly. The bad part is that I still do have the body aches and pains and a really profound dizziness and nausea that has basically kept me in bed with nothing to do but sleep. Can you say boring and depressing? Yup, that's a summary of how I've been feeling.

So yeah. Sorry if I've been slow to writing back e-mails or sending out packages. I have literally not left my home in over a week. This is the longest time I've spent online in the last week, which is probably more than the other times combined. I'm still shocked I haven't gotten too dizzy and quit.

Oooh, spoke too soon. Gonna go lay down again. <3 you girls. Thank you Eki and Lisa for the amazing V-day love packages you sent, it means more to me now that you could ever, ever know. And thank you everyone else for your support and understanding. I hope you are all able to stay healthy and happy and safe.

xoxo