Heart 2 Heart: Body Image7:20 PM
Ahh, May 14th, I remember you so fondly for all of the laughter and tears from last year's post and video. The post I am talking about was my first Heart 2 Heart where I recorded myself with my bare face, telling you guys about how I struggled with acne for half my life.
In lieu of the anniversary of this very open, very beautifully vulnerable holiday I wanted to record another Heart 2 Heart speaking about a topic that has been pressing upon my heart lately: Body Image.
Last year's video here:
I didn't intend for all of my Heart 2 Heart episodes to be without makeup, but somehow I think it keeps me and the audience more honest. In a way, it does take some bravery to put yourself up there in front of thousands of people just waiting to get hit by a bunch of twisted comments reiterating all the things you are self-conscious about, but I think it's also cathartic too.
I'm not the type of person who seeks out tons of admiration and it really turns my insides when I see comments from girls who seem to put bloggers and youtubers up on some kind of pedestal, as if they are idols, and stating how sad they are about their own lives, bodies, faces, or situations. Obviously it is very difficult to show people in 5 or 10 minutes who you truly are as a person. We do put up our best faces for our videos and pictures so it's easy to be fooled by the smoke and mirrors. At the end of the day, we are all human with our imperfections.
In terms of body image, I've mentioned this a bit here and there but my body size has made it very difficult for me to find clothes and shoes that fit... on top of all of the mean comments I've been called for it throughout my entire life. If I had a dime for every lewd comment a guy made about my height, or a snarky person saying I need to eat a burger, or cruel girls who tell me I look anorexic, I would be a very rich lady.
Somehow in our society it is completely unacceptable to tell an overweight person that they should "lose weight, fatty" but to say "you look so bony, eat a sandwich" it's totally okay. Why is that? It's a popular message to say that women are beautiful at any size except when they are skinny. I'm sure you've heard women themselves complaining saying, "Who wants a woman with no curves?" and "Women with no curves look like 12 year old boys." I'm not saying one or the other is right, I'm just saying for goodness sakes, can we just accept who we are, whatever our size?
It's so easy to put others down because of our own insecurities but the answer is not in pointing fingers and degrading others, especially for things they can't change. Instead we need to stop and take a good look in the mirror and accept who we are today, just as we are. Only then can we use the fun stuff like makeup, hairstyling, and fashion to honestly express who we are and not just what we want others to think we are.
Yes, I know I am skinny. I used to feel insecure about my spine looking like a stegosaurus. I hated wearing tank tops because my shoulders were bony. I hated how my wrists and knees looked because of how pronounced they are. But the thing is, is I don't actually weigh any differently than when I felt that way in middle school. The only thing that changed is my perception about my body and that if I am healthy IT'S OKAY!
Alright, onward marching with my bare-faced pics. No tweaking, editing, photoshopping, etc except to add my watermark.
Here's to accepting the things we cannot change, improving the things we can, and always, always having hope for the future no matter where things may be now.
Thank you so incredibly much to those out there who have encouraged me to love myself and to have the courage to share my struggles with everyone. I can't say that I'd have been able to do this 10 years ago but I am a much stronger, more confident woman now for having been through what I have endured in the past. If you feel like there's no light at the end of the tunnel, trust me, there's a reason you are going through what you are and you wouldn't be able to relate to others if you didn't go through it, so see every difficulty as a blessing.
Please do let me know if you decide to also take part in "bloggers with no makeup" week. If you'd like me to link your blog entry or video, I will add them the to end of this post. :)
Check out these beautiful, strong girls and their Bloggers With No Makeup/Body Image posts:
Photo Sensitivity - Response to Frmheadtotoe's Heart 2 Heart: Body Image
Blissfully Ke - Coffee Chat: Real Beauty
froovyjosie. - Bloggers With No Makeup Day
If I missed your link, please let me know and I will add you. Spread the love!